I AM 28 never to be 30

I was never 100 percent, carefree.
I was once a youth with limited responsibilities.
I was a student at Pratt Institute. I can never go to grad school because I still owe Pratt a lot of money.
I was a used items dealer, once in my life. I ran a flea market stand every weekend for a year.
I was an assistant editor working in post production.
I was a substitute stage manger for an off broadway show for a couple of months.

I have written three scripts which I hope to either make or sell.
I make experimental video/film and video art which I showcase from time to time in small art galleries and shows.
I take photographs as a hobby. Sometimes for money.
I write all the time, whether poetry, short stories, essays, ideas for world peace.
I display my works through my website which I design and change very often.

I make $1,000 a month selling electronics on Amazon.
I am a father, a brother, a husband, and a son.
I used to want to change things, make an impact, but now just want to live.

I want to make the scariest fucking movie. (a la argento)
I want to make the prettiest porno. (a la russ meyer)
I want to write a novel and have it published.
I want to learn how to blow glass.
I want to become a sculptor.
I want to design and build my own house from scratch.
I want to move to Portland. Oregon, NOT Maine.

I want to sleep because I can afford so little of it.
I want to travel back in time and make "THE MAN WHO FELL TO EARTH"
I want to make music for only pretty people.
I want to be friends with Doug Aitken, he seems to have cool friends.